2010@第一份工

我今天替工，帮我妹妹，RM30 一天，11点--9点
可是薪水全给我买了衣服和吃～反而还倒贴！！ 我是干嘛啊！！

今天打工造型---要性感· 化妆。。

看上了LOREAL新款染发剂～超想染的！可是我的头发得用2瓶！
帅哥老板--青峰，送了我们每人一个包包，
我选了蓝色美国旗的，另外个毛毛的我用钱买的。。
可以装小样物品/零钱～
好喜欢，谢谢老板～
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我们算和好了吗？

你几时会来找我？

昨夜，我发了个信息给你，打了很多次电话都是关机。
你一个小时后（我睡着了）时给我的信息。。
今早，我才看到～
你说：我没事!在家里不用担心:)宝贝要等我回来哦
我看了很安慰· 开心！
可是开心完后，不懂你说的会实现吗？
你的事情还在拖拖拉拉吗？
有让你放不下/不舍得吗？？
你几时回来？
？？？好多疑问？？？
不敢问，你也不会答。。

活是为了爱吗？

今天，和妹妹一起出发去妹妹新工作地方，试了几件衣。。 我出来想找工作了，可是不懂哪些工适合我～
我没有化妆，憔悴了！！
之前去云顶量体重·身高，164cm--44kg 变 41.8kg，又瘦了...
刚刚等车，过年风一吹，我有站不稳的感觉～
以为2009是我的好年，可是事情不是我想的那样，
2009年尾，我很大打击～
倒数圣诞 · 新年，都少了他。。
以后，他会怎样对我？？
时间能证明---我和你真的能白头偕老吗？？
我努力的挽留 · 原谅，你能真的看到吗？

我想我们重头来过～～

“不开心还是要过～”
这是我的一班朋友和我说的
爸比也知道了，反对了～
我不懂今天主动找回他，是错还是对？
是错的吧？
愚蠢，不理智，笨，固执，无药可救-----就是我。。
我是错的吧，好像没有了他就活不了，
我问他：我们还会在一起吗？他说：会..
就这一句话，我原谅他～（虽然他没有道歉）
他叫我别哭，晚上别再乱跑（去夜店），说要记得吃东西～
--他回来了吗？？--

朋友们，我让你们失望了
爸比，我不孝，对不起～

就让我自己骗自己吧！
骗自己----他会为了我而改。。
我真心希望，他真的会，真的做到。。
3次的背叛，我已麻木了。。
请别再这样对我了。。
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晚上11点，顺杰也来看我了。。
他带了一瓶红酒来，
我喝了4杯，就头晕，睡觉了。。
我这一晚，不想去想，只想睡好觉～
我知道，他的事还没有解决，为什么他还犹豫？？

我是爱疯了！！！

Back FROM GenTing Again ~

Me went to Genting again, no really fun...just stay as usual ^^ We went to CASINO gamble ~ I'm won RM 62.50~Is this suppose to happy ?? I'm always thinking about my BoY when at there,even his mum also come to Genting meet with me ~
She had won $$ when gamble in CASINO *
She still not realize his son was guilty at me...
I'm not hate his mum anymore...
Esther said his mum really not understanding our topic ~
Esther angry to saw her ~
This were us... EsTher & mE Me with my sister ^^
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Did u know i'm missing U , CHA GEI YA ??!!!
I can forgive what u had done at me ...

你忍心丢下我吗？
回来吧～
我。。是。。爱。。你。。的～

BRoKe ~

I'm lose this time...badly lose..
I thought i'm won, BUT i'm not ~~
I'm broke with HIM....
This was the truth ^^
I'm sad, weakness..
Can't do anything now~
Will i strong enough to accept ??

~5 years 9 month relationship~

___LOVE___

LaSt DaY oF 2oo9

Today my plan to cluBBlinG almost cancel~
They all just nervous, confuse either want to go for count down or not ?
Finally,i spend many credit to call & message them, they all don't want go!!!
Included my Dear deaR~
Who will help me make that call ??
"The new year get back call "...
OH MY ....
Me with my brother
At last, i 'm out with FAI,
My place--J-Street & Trilogy ~
They all play with the snow & ribbons spray *_*
The stranger spray my eye with snow(luckily my eye not hurt)
The Indians spray ribbons on my head,till now can'y remove it !!!
The green wisel's light gave by my primary school fight friend--Wei Choong--,i meet him at there, i ask for it !!
He gave it !!!So generous~Thanks ya...love U ^^
Then another things make me happy was a handsome--He named NICK, 23...
Praised me pretty & good body..( Had another fat guy also praise me)
He said for 3 times...
His eye likes wants to rape me !!!
What a weird man ~
He looks like a Hong Kong Movie star's face !!!
He ask for my number & i gave it ^^
FAI treats me very good, send me there then went back & help me make that call ~
1am, time to know the truth~~
He calling & coming ~ He worried about me ^^
He warn me be careful & tommorow will find me !!!
DiD i'm win ??
I hope for see HIM ...
Now, i did !!!
What will happens on tommorow--New Year-- ??
Now was 7am, i'm still not in bed...

Tomorrow is " COUNT DoWN"
Me will happy celebrate no matter what ~
Will go out with my friends *_*
I hope now i can be with my BoY again,cause i'm miss him...
Today's evening happened many things,it's let me can forgive my BoY now, although i'm no meet him..
He not giving any gift / flower / his guilty for betray me~
But one person had helps he a lot, i now will forgive him..
I know he love me more than that~
He had try to protect me..But he failed..
I will protect myself...
Things make me know the truth- the pain- the sad- the tears- the experience in my life- The happy-
The hope for now ~
Although he hasn't do anything to solve the problem~
I'm still forgive HIM ^^
I had bought myself a present * SEXY GIRL * hair spray cologne ^^
It's cost me RM 39.80, smell so great ~~
Actually i want to buy it quite a long time, BUT it too expensive..
Now i bought IT !!
Thanks for all my faceBOOk friends and dear friends~
Thanks EstheR, SIS, TK Wong, Bro, Joraine, Vincent and Kenny ...
They gave their opinion, suggestion and support to me ~
Me will ok~